“I could not come here, if you
hadn’t existed,
I could not love this city,
I could not understand its way… “
When I saw my little “windmill” in
the balcony, I remembered that song. Then it came to my lips. If he hadn’t been,
I could not come here, I would not want it. But I am in Madrid, in his
city. I am sick. I have fever. My throat is terrible and I am alone. But anyway
it is nice. It is nice although he enjoys without knowing that I am thinking
these. He must enjoy. Did not I want him to be with met o make him happy? So he
must enjoy. With me or without me, it doesn’t matter. I am also smiling because
I know that he enjoys. I think I am a more tolerable person, as if I hadn’t got
pains because of my being a tolerable person. I am scared that the more I love
here and the people living here, the more I will love him. I must have an end.
When I recall him, he must leave a kind smile on my lips and go. He mustn’t
bring tears then.
I came here to leave the Mediterranean
Sea behind, when he had already put Atlantic Ocean between us.
I am in Spain and I started to write
something again. Actually that is enough!
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